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Saturday, August 20, 2011

Let me tell you about my brother >.>

Sooooo~ I was helping my mom clean this store we work at because she hurt her back, right? Right.
My brother slaps me once before we start cleaning, and i shrug it off. He pokes me really hard later. It felt like he was stabbing me with a butter knife. I decided to be professional and just say 'Hey, stop it!' instead of slapping him back. Later when i go upstairs to get him from the break room so we can take the garbage out, he flicks me. It wasn't the kind of 'haha, lol jk jk' flick. It was more of the 'I HATE TO SO MUCH' flick that feeling like some out shot you with an airsoft gun. And i said 'You know what? FINE. I won't help you with the garbage.' And so i go down stairs to explain to my mom why i wasn't taking out the garbage with him, and she gets PISSED. And this is what she said 'You are NOT working with me tomorrow. You and your brother just can't get along can you?! WHY CAN'T YOU GET ALONG!?' And i try to calming explain what happened, and tell her that i did nothing wrong. My brother comes in and she asks him what happened. All he said was 'SHE'S LYING!' And i just stare at him. SHOCKED. Like, What the heck man!? I DID NOTHING TO YOU! And then she starts yelling at us in front of a few employees. I got embarrassed and said nothing the rest of the night. Nothing. Not in the car ride home. Not at home. I am typing this now just to get this all out. And just a few minutes ago, my father came in here. and yelled at me, saying it was BOTH OF OUR FAULTS. I don't have a problem with that, but then he started to make it sound like i am the one at fault. Not my brother. And that is a day in my home life. This happens what? About.. 4 or 5 times a week? And the WHOLE FAMILY gets involved. Yeah. home life. Weeeeh. Fun *sarcasm*

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Every one sees something that we wish to forget. We keep it locked up in the back of our minds, hidden until the day we need this memory to keep us human... Mutters in the dark are the only thing keeping us from insanity

Monday, August 8, 2011

Jealous rant (Warning, may contain swearing...)

I have found myself getting...jealous.
JEALOUS OF THE MAN I SHOULD HATE (But don't for some STUPID reason)

I mean seriously, i should just get a grip and never think about him again. BUT I JUST CAN'T DO THAT CAN I?! >:C Noooo, because i'm stupid idiot, i can't just seem to stop thinking about him >.> Am i becoming like a jealous girlfriend now? AM I WHAT I HATE THE MOST!? GAAAAHHHH >.> Geez! We never went out, but, he acted like an evil ex... And now i'm all pissed off and don't know what to do D:< Maybe i am just bored and lonely as always and just want attention FROM ANYONE, and that's why, BUT HOW THE H*LL DO I STOP FEELING LIKE THIS!? D:< I really just need to work on something to get my mind off of this. But, All i want to do is talk to him... again... BUT NO. Because like i said before, i SHOULD hate him, but, i don't, I'M FRIGGIN TORN. GAWD Dx< Grrr.... *grinds teeth*

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Loneliness washed over me like a cold wave of sorrow.
I felt like no one was there.
Not a one.
All of my friends were off at camp, or hanging out with relatives. I'm just here, alone...
I feel like there is nothing for me.
No one had time for me...
All too busy to even look at the calender.
I began to cry.
I didn't want to be crying.
I didn't want to look like this.
I didn't want today to be like this.
I didn't want anything i had...
Want i wanted was no where to be found.
I wanted to be laughing right now.
I wanted to be holding a hand.
I wanted to be with someone.
I wanted to with you.
And yet, i'm still here...
Will the loneliness subside?
(I want to be the concert...)