Left behind...

Ever feel felt behind? Always alone? Invisible? Disposable? All of the above? Yeah, that's how i usaully feel. I had a popular stage in my life but, that ended quickly. My two best friends would choose each other over me. We use to walk the halls together at my school, guess who would be behind? Yes, that's right. Me. Also having just two older brothers who like video games and such doesn't help either. All they talk about is video games and math. When i try to talk to them i just get ignored. my mother is also busy, my only friends i can rely on are my friends from church and the people i've met online. but, i met this one guy earlier this year, he made me feel better about myself. He told me he loved me and that i made him feel good. He fell in love with me, yup, the first guy to have a crush on me. I was so amazing, i was so happy. He would hug me and tell me i was pretty, which i have low self esteem, he would come over to me when i was eating lunch and talk to me. He creeped my best friend out but, personally i liked the attention. it made me feel loved, but, then he moved on. We hardly talk... i don't know what i did to push him away, but, he doesn't talk to me. I guess i will eventually push everyone.

Sorry for a depressing first post ^^; I'll make something more happy next time~