The other day it just kinda of struck me that no one has a perfect life.
Ever. I had always known this, be I never realized how true it is.
I had this friend, she was rich, had a beautiful big home, and got everything she wanted. But, her father left her as a child, and her mom had died. She now just lived with her grandparents.
My other friend, she is beautiful, has the perfect eyes, the perfect body, perfect everything. But she hates herself, and wishes she was different.
Another girl I know, she is beautiful and kind but is terribly ill and can't make it outside because she was so weak.


The other day I was hanging out with my friend after lunch, and he said 'My acne is terrible.'
To me, it really isn't as bad as he thinks it is. I think everyone has something they hate about themselves that they think is worse than it actually is.
I think the only way we can be truly happy with our lives is to accept things as they are.
I'm chubby, and that's okay.
I am extremely tall, and that's okay.
I'm overly sensitive, and that's okay.
I think if we can get over the things that we think are 'wrong' with us, we can become happier.
Because hating something isn't going to change it. On days when I feel insecure, I write a list of things that are 'right' with me.
I think to have people accept you, you have to accept yourself. If we just accept and love our flaws we can become more confident.
And I think that if we can accept out flaws than others can see that, and see how happy we have become. And maybe they can be happy too.

I wish I could be mean...

Sometimes, I wish I could be mean.
There is this girl in my school who is always alone, but she isn't all that different.
She likes anime and manga. Vocaloids, japan, and is in almost all my classes.
But, she's mean.
First time I met her we were on a field trip, and we went to Daiso. I picked up a manga coloring book and showed it to her because I knew she liked to drawing and manga. And I said 'Isn't this cute? I love these books, I think they are adorable!'
And she replied with 'God Amelia. You're so immature,'
I just stood in silence.
So you may think 'Hey maybe she WANTS to be alone'
She doesn't. She really doesn't. She'll tell you too.
I would still try to be nice to her once in a while, and when I was she'd always just complain about how she has no friends.
She really really wants friends, but when ever I try to be nice, or really ANYONE tries to be nice to her she shoots them down. Just the other day we were having a test and she was crying because she though she didn't do well and I said 'Hey deary, it's gonna be okay. I'm sure you will do great!' and smiled to cheer her up. All she did was glared at me and yell 'NO IT'S NOT.'


She wants kindness, but when she gets it she refuses. I wish I could stop being so nice, and I want to be able to just ignore her. But... I can't. I try, but I just can't.

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Birthday Blues...

My birthday party was this weekend. Only three people were able to make it.
When I handed out invites to 15 people, everyone seemed excited, but, three weeks later, no one had rsvp'd...
The one person I was really counting on just canceled. Everyone has forgotten all my party and me...

I know it probably wasn't personal. But, I'm still disappointed about it...

Falling Down.

She falls.

She falls into deception and lies.

She falls into a world which has never been experienced by her.

She falls and keeps falling.

She doesn’t know what she wants anymore.

She doesn’t know where she is going anymore.

She doesn’t know how long with will last.

She falls and never stops falling.

She keeps falling.

She doesn’t know the people around her anymore

She doesn’t understand there logic anymore

She falls and never stops falling.

This one is for Ashley

Pavement slipping

Trees falling

Birds dieing

People screaming

The world sinking

Destruction coming

Life ending

World slowing

Time stopping

A blue box coming

A doctor saving

A doctor healing

A doctor helping

A doctor showing

And a Doctor fighting

Screams stop

The world turns

Destruction is past

Trees standing

Pavement holding

And time turning. 

Test your name meaning!

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Amelia's name means: 1) Lolicon. 2) Useless baggage.
 Geez. I feel loved D:>
And even my nick name!
Mimi's name means: 1) To show off your ●●● 2) A dangerous person...
Like, what?
Test your name, and post your answer in the comment section! xD It's actually pretty funny :D

Amelia, Please, Come home.

Amelia.
Please.
Come home, and stay home.

Spider bites.

In this world there is no place for people like you. I'll exterminate you with my spider bite.
In this world there is no place for weaklings like you. I'll exterminate you with my spider bite.

Conversation is useless between enemies.

 This whole post relates to a conversation between me and a 'friend'.
Basically me ranting, and saying what I wish I could say to his face...



I'm disappointed in you.
Disappointed and angry.
I was annoyed by you kissing your friend, and saying it meant nothing, but, I could handle it.
To accept and move on is what I used say.
I can deal with light swearing, but, not when it's used at me.
HE said the same thing to me.
Tell me, what is the difference?
Because we were friends?
Because we ARE friends?
No.
Whether a bully said it to me, or a friend, it hurts all the same.
I wasn't even being mean.
I was trying to say I thought it was sweet that you would help your mom in the garden.
And then you go cursing me off?
And what's wrong with that?
What's wrong with having a sensitive side?
Oh wait.
My mistake.
It appears you don't.
I don't even care if you were maybe even having a bad day, that was uncalled for.
Do you even treasure me as a friend?
As a person?
As a human being with real emotions and feelings?
I don't need people like you to be my friends.
And you obviously don't need me.
You've changed.
And I don't like it.
What ever happened, WHO ever happened, they deserve to die.
What happened to my swing dancin' partner?
What happened to you, the you, who on the day I was called a freak, ate all my muffins when no one else would, and made me feel alright when it felt like nothing was going right?
 What happened to him?
And where did he go?
I miss him, and I want him back.

I love psychology.

Take note. SWEATPANTS ARE NOT CUTE NOR ARE THEY FLATTERING ON ANY ONE!

O.O Uguu!

Alienation

Take no pity.

Take no shame.

Take no hope.

Walk away from him.

Say goodbye.

Set the barriers.

Arm the guns.

Hold on to your heart.

Don’t let him take it.

Don’t let his looks make you feel guilty.

He is dangerous.

He is hurtful.

Not to you.

But, to himself.

So, hide.

You’ve seen it before.

Let this be the end.

Let your yes be yes.

And your no be no.

He has only done this to himself.

It is not your fault.

So keep walking.

Don’t look back.

You are not wrong.

There will be others for him.

But, you are not to sacrifice yourself.

Show no pity.

The world will keep turning for him.

He will learn his place.

Because you know yours.

The Loneliness

Desperate, lost, the wondering people full of mental illnesses.

People cower in fear of the hearts of the lost.

The stench of despair wafted through crowds of people.

Offices full of clichés.

Homes full of lies.

Schools full of outcasts.

They only know themselves.

They fear anything unknown to them.

Questions they fear to ask riddle other’s minds.

Their mouths sewed shut with the strings of mistakes.

Top of buildings are full of people looking down on the world.

Only to be crushed by their own hand full of lecherous intentions.

Cries of the lost will only be answered by one.

The one we choose to ignore.

I have no name.

But, when I come, you will know me.

And the loneliness will cease to exist.

LMAO. Kids these days xD

I'm sorry

Listen.
I don't want to be your friend.
So quit trying to be mine.
You cannot make amends for what you did.
What you did was wrong.
And you just can't accept that.
I'm not holding a grudge.
You're just dangerous.
Not just to me, but, to yourself.
And if you cannot respect my boundaries, I will take this matter to a higher authority.
So please.
Back off.

Sparkle sparkle!

Japanese fashions ftw!