Hollow

His eyes were like liquid fire. 

His glare, it felt like it was burning a whole in my heart.

The more i looked at him, the more hollow i felt.

It was like he was ripping out everything that made me...me.

He hollowed me out, and left me alone on the side walk.

An empty shell of what i used to be.

Today i found out something disturbing...

I looked up 'happyemobunnies.com' on google. To see if my site came down, which it did.

But the things after it...scared me. 

There were two porn sites listed below five of my actual connected sites.This disturbed me, and so, out of curiosity i clicked on one.  

Yup. It was a porn site. A sick, twisted one too...

Now the only question is, HOW THE HECK DID MY BLOG/NAME GET ON THERE!?

ZOMBIE AWARNESS HERE ON HAPPY-EMO BUNNIES.COM :O

MUST WATCH!

BE AWARE OF THE DANGERS OF ZOMBIES.

Kids fight.

He climbed.

His head peeked up over the window sill.

"What did you do now?" He asked with a chuckle.

I blushed and looked away.

"Oh, come on, we both know why your in here. You tried it again didn't you?"

"N-no!" I denied.

He came closer and sat on the edge of my bed. 

I gripped the teddy bear my best friend had given me earlier today.

'Just leave me alone...I hate you' i thought to myself.

He kept trying to get close to me, and i couldn't move very far. 

The wires hooked up to me held me back.

"Recharging takes a while, Huh?" He said.

"Yeah, duh. That's why i am here" I said, "idiot" i whispered under my breath.

"Bing-ding-pong" Went the machine that i had been hooked up to, signally it was finish recharging me.

I pulled out the plug out of my neck, and stood up.

I walked over to the window with confidence. 

Quickly slid open the window, and jumped out.

Fire eats away.

I watched the fire eat away at the paper i had placed inside the glass doors.  The fire blackened the paper ever so slowly.  The fire looked like liquid, it was smooth and effortlessly taking away these papers.  These papers never were meant to be taken into the world. So now i will take them away.  Thank you fire, thank you for taking away these horrible things.  They weren't meant to be... a little like me.  Dear fire, you are just like water.  Yet, why does it defeat you?

Secrets inside the sleeping mind.

Sorry guys, this won't be another poem. ^^;;

There are a lot of things people won't and don't tell us. 

Whether it's important or not, they just don't/won't tell us. 

Which is slightly depressing.

From my experience, the one thing people don't tell us or explain, is their reasoning.

It's an odd thing to hide don't you think? 'Why don't they just tell us? I mean, it's not like i'm going to freak out!' i usaully think. But, honestly, i do the exact same thing. And honestly, i have no clue why!

Another thing, is out secret passions. I like the song Bruises and Bitemarks, which is odd for me. I usaully can't stand the songs about sex and murder, and *shiver* rape... But, this song is so damn catchy!

Anyways, one of my secret passions is drawing...bloody pictures. Today my friend was looking through my drawing book, and came across a picture. That day i was really sad, and i drew a picture of a shot girl, and it said 'Shot Down' on the side. She gave me a look, i could not interpret it though. Either it was a look of disgust or just shock. Which ever one it was, i was rather embarrassed. I felt stupid... 

Anyways, another thing people usaully hide, is there sexuality. I recently found out one of my closest friends was bisexual. I mean, i have problem with bisexual people, i respect them as a person. I just don't agree with it (I'm Christian if you didn't know...).

Also, people lie about there feelings for you. My best friend and i recently got into a fight, she wouldn't tell me why she was so pissed off, and i took a guess. She was going to miss me, like, a lot. I didn't understand why she couldn't just tell me how she felt, why was she so ashamed of it? Was she embarrassed? Did she think that i would have judged her for that? Why couldn't she just tell me? I still don't know.
Any secrets you want to tell me? ;3 Comment!

Scary, creepy, freak, metrosexual, my life is failing on me.

Last night was babysitting with those two girls who called me a freak, remember?

It happened again, they judged me.

'Mimi, your disgusting for liking a gay man!'

'Mimi, your sick for writing poems'

Mimi, this Mimi, that.

They asked my favorite band and i answered truthfully 'Jack off jill' and 'Black Veil Brides'

"eww, what kind of name is that!?"

"Geez, it's just a name! Nothing wrong with that"

"Can we hear them?"

"Fine, whatever..." I went off to go get my MP3 from my back pack.

When i came back, it seemed as if they has been talking about something i wasn't supposed to hear.

I let them hear them, and they looked disgusted.

"HE SOUNDS GAY" The younger one yelled (She's 11)

"Yeah, he kinda does..." Said the older one (She's 14)

"Whatever, because he isn't, he's straight. He's like me, he's a metrosexual"

"What's that?" They asked me.

And i explained. 

Metrosexual is some one who looks gay, acts gay, but is totally hetrosexual.

I wrongly thought they'd understand because they are in public school, But, i guess not!

They freaked out and asked if my mom knew, WELL DUH. It's not like i'm bisexual! GEEZ.

I just answered yes. They giggled their evil little laughs. Ashley kept texting away. I hated everyone in that room, except for the small boy sleeping on my couch. I hated this time of the month, even more than when i have my period. 

Now, i said 'piss' and in my book, it isn't a swear word. Just how I was raised. But, they said that was a swear word. And i pointed out to them that there is NOTHING in the bible about swear.And i am a christian so, i believe in everything in the bible. They said i was wrong, but, they couldn't prove it. This has been a hard month on me lately, i can't wait for summer...

							http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6TkdwgWnGYQ

...I wish you could see me, and love me back...

Advice.

Hey guys, this isn't going to be another poem post, more like something i need help with.

You see, one of my closest friends in moving to a new school, far away from me. She says she has no time to call me, to hear me out, to invite me over, or even to come over to my place. Now, i have another friend who is moving states, who has the time to call me and ask me over and she's in public school. I'm going to miss her dearly, so i've been kinda down and easily pissed off. Anyways, back to my friend who is moving to a new school. 

She has been... i dunno, what's a good word to describe 'slightly unresolvable, stubborn, and insensitive' all in one word?

I thought i want to break us up because it would be easier for her and me. If she was angry at me, and i hated her, then maybe it'd be easier for the two of us. Now i'm starting to second guess myself.

Maybe i only did it to test her and to see if she'd follow me, and find me. But, seeing her stay back and forget about me is...Hurtful.

She says she has no time, when honestly, if a girl who is moving away to Missouri who is swamped with homework, and goes to school everyday can make plans to go shopping with me, how can a girl who only goes to school three or four days a week never have time? 

What do you think? Should i let her go, going a long with my plan, hold on, or just drop dead?

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I will find a way without you.

Remember all those posts a while back? About breaking a relationship? Well, i think it's happening :D I'm rather proud of my self for finally saying 'you know what? *insert exactly how i feel*' I'm proud of myself for saying 'hey lady! I'm Amelia H. And i'm here to show the world something special!' :D

Gonna have a good time tonight, gonna have a good time tonight~<3